So this two weeks i've been watching CNY movies.They are: All's Well Ends Well 2009,Love Matters,and The Wedding Game.
Firstly i went to watch Love Matters with Boon How,Kela and Poh-E after having a small dinner.As usual,i didn't talk to the girls,since i don't know them that well,and had been talking crap with Boon.Haha.The movie's very NC-16,with some sexual humor here and there.And of course,Jack Neo never ceases to inject certain governmental mockery into the show,but still,it's worth my 10 bucks.
ok i can't find a large enough poster for this,but you get what i mean.
Then next day went to Boon's place for steamboat dinner,this time round with the four of us (see above,moron),Yichao,Huiting and Alain.Well they went swimming in the pool and if you've read Huiting's blog as well,she was wearing Boon's Speedos from primary school,and it fitted her very well.Our girl there has late puberty,i noticed.Ooops i'm a pervert. :O Alright,so i lazed around the poolside while they swam and talked crap.The security there was rather strict,i can't even be near the pool without being in my swimwear.Wtf-ish. (a term favorited by Ah Bee haha.)
After that we Hotel 626-ed (again,i know),and watched Boon trying to search for stuff that i didn't dare to watch :X And i went home at around 11.
**i'm distracted now,talking to Yingying,an old friend,so post may be distorted. :P
Then on Monday i went to watch All's Well Ends Well 2009 with mum and sis,squeezing into the train with a million barbarians (refer to my previous status update on fb).The show could be more entertaining,if only Singapore allows movies to be in dialect throughout.It sounds so much cooler in Canto luh. :(
Next day i watched The Wedding Game with sis,and watching in same cinema (Cineleisure Orchard) -.- It turned out to be quite funny,to my surprise.
i wrote this with my blood at 9:01 PM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Well,title says it all.
Song name: Seemann by Apocalyptica (Feat Nina Hagen)
Lyrics:
Komm in mein Boot
Ein Sturm kommt auf und es wird
NachtWo willst du hin?
So ganz allein treibst du davon
Wer hält deine Hand
Wenn es dich nach unten zieht
Wo willst du hin
So uferlos die kalte See
Komm in mein Boot
Der Herbstwind hält die Segel straff
Jetzt stehst du da an der Laterne
Mit tränen im Gesicht
Das Tageslicht fällt auf die Seite
Der Herbstwind fegt die Straße leer
Jetzt stehst du da an der Laterne
Hast tränen im Gesicht
Das Abendlicht verjagt die schatten
Die zeit steht still und es wird herbst
Komm in mein Boot
Die Sehnsucht wird der Steuermann
Komm in mein Boot
Der beste Seemann war doch ich
Jetzt stehst du da an der Laterne
Hast tränen im Gesicht
Das Feuer nimmst du von der Kerze
Die zeit steht still und es wird herbst
Sie sprachen nur von deiner Mutter
So gnadenlos ist nur die Nacht
Am ende bleib ich doch alleine
Die zeit steht stillUnd mir ist kalt
Kalt...
Kalt...
[English translation:]
Come into my boat
A storm is rising and night is falling
Where are you going?
All alone you're drifting off
Who's going to hold your hand
When it's pulling you down under
Where are you going?
The cold sea is shoreless.
Come into my boat
The autumn wind keeps the sails taut.
Now you're standing there by the lantern
With tears in your face
Daylight falls aside
The autumn wind sweeps the street empty
Now you're standing there by the lantern
Got tears in your face
Evening light chases the shadows away
Time's standing still and autumn's falling
Come into my boat
The longing becomes the steersman
Come into my boat
Wasn't I the best sailor?
Now you're standing there by the lantern
Got tears in your face
You take your fire from the candle
Time's standing still and autumn's falling
They spoke only about your mother
Only night is so merciless
In the end I stay alone
Time's standing still
And I am cold
Cold...
Cold...
Well,the english translation isn't perfect,but,well,it's just for you to have a rough idea what the song is about. ;)
i wrote this with my blood at 8:36 PM
Saturday, January 24, 2009
This is a word i am most afraid of these few days,even with the Chinese New Year in two days' time.I'm spending more than ever this year.Damn.
i wrote this with my blood at 1:16 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Amazing drums there.Totally in sync!Hats off to you,whoever you are. ;)
Track name: Enemy Within by Arch Enemy.
Lyrics:
Dark thoughts rise up
Deep in your mind
The killing of hope
The end has begun
The locked psycho-door breaks down
The beast breathes freedom and fire
Blows bloody thoughts into your mind
Demons whisper: "COMMIT SUICIDE!"
Weak is your body,
Helpless your soul,
The beast destroyed your will
Left nothing but an empty shell
Self-destruction leads its way
Your weapons turn against yourself
Cutting through, killing you
A downward spiral, the shadowbeast has won
The shadowbeast calls
A vulture of life
Your worst enemy dwells
From within
i wrote this with my blood at 7:38 PM
Monday, January 19, 2009
As the title says.
1) I am no homosexual,and have no interest at all to be one. (inside joke amongst the ex-4R boys)
2) I attend church,but it doesn't mean i'm a full-fledged Christian,until i fully believe in it.
3) Indeed,i do have the intention to end my life,but my cowardice prevents me from taking the knife and stabbing it into my blackened heart.
4) Something extra to number 2:yes,i do listen to black metal,like everyday,but that doesn't mean i have any desire to become a Satanist or to be atheist.
5) I wish nothing more than to die a lonesome death,so stop getting me to entertain your nonsensical requests.If you want to die as well (that is,if you even know the horrors of death before doing it),here's a suggestion:take the knife and stab it to your throat.
6) I know my English is mediocre,i write with no intelligence and i do not have a strong vocabulary bank in-built in me.This weblog is plainly coniststed of words that first come to my mind.For enlightenment on principles of life,visit Marc's blog and if you feel like expanding your vocab/learning new words,go to Ling's blog. ;) sorta like an advertisement for their blogs eh?Lol.
7) The "What is reality?A dream?" series is over,if you've not noticed,so this name may appear again,if i can really find my long lost Gabrielle.That is,if i'm still alive to do so. ;)
8) I have no interest in CDG,though she's been absolutely nice to me,even though i haven't seen her for like,5 years?Well,she's a great,great friend of mine.And if i ever get interested in her now,her bf will kill me.Plus he'd known of my existence and my closeness to her,so i think it'll be more of a torture-to-death scenario.Haha.
9) I know the blogskin isn't that great,but i'm keeping this because i like the color combination.I love the colors red and black.
10) Wrists are for girls,so slit your throat. ;)
i wrote this with my blood at 9:03 PM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Relentless effort from CDG,once again.She mentioned something that caught my attention.
In a text message,she told me that "there are people still concerned for you".Er,if it counts her and my family?So,that statment didn't really count in this case.And those who treat this as a joke,go on,have a laugh,i'll have the last laugh anyway. ;)
Well,suicidal stuff aside,i watched Red Cliff 2 yesterday,and hell,it was a f-ing great film,especially for someone like me who knows a bit of Chinese history here and there.Best scenes:the using of the boats full of straw to get arrows from the Cao army,and the burning of the Cao ships.Man,both scenes are incredible,especially the latter.Ace! (Note:this,i think,is one of the only Chinese movies that i am totally in awe with,so bear with me if i sound mad,raving :P) Watched it with my sis and her friend (well,i dunno how to spell her name,spare me from the embarassment when they see that i got her name wrong! :P),and we were amazed by the main guy (Zhu Geliang),he's...one word:COOL.The other actors were equally great,like they fit well into the characters and all,but Zhu Geliang was exceptional. :D
i wrote this with my blood at 7:23 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
It has come to my knowledge that some of you have read my blog and taking every thing to heart.Believe me,you only believe what you see.
One moment i am Shenglian,the guy who loves to have company,the happy-go-lucky guy who enjoys spending time with friends.The other moment i am Eeden once again,the depressionist who finds no purpose in life at all,and is only waiting for the bells of death to strike once again.Schizophrenia has got a strong hold on me,i guess.I keep imagining myself to have a double personality.
And reading from some bogus website,i seem to have moderate depression.I'm surprised that they don't label me as a severe case,given the many suicidal emotions i have every now and then.I've planned my death well,not to worry.My death will not harm any one physically.Maybe do some evil before my existence finally becomes void. ;)
And many readers are trying to cheer me up (most obvious example being CDG,even though she's busy with her own life as well).I thank you for being concerned for me,but what's done is done.
Well,some may say i'm talking crap.I know i am writing random stuff in this weblog here,so if you've got a problem with what i say,back the f off.Good day to you.
i wrote this with my blood at 1:06 PM
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Did what Miner suggested me to do.Well the results weren't those of which i was hoping for,but at least i know.Thanks Miner,and btw i'll be dropping by for my 5 bucks on Friday.Kekeke.
i wrote this with my blood at 10:12 PM
Saturday, January 3, 2009
A few quotes for you,the french words are used simply due to personal interest in the french language:
Dans les sentiments de solitude, l'absence de présence est mon foyer. (In emotions of solitude, the non-presence is my home.)
l'état du bonheur n'est jamais existent. (the state of bliss is never existent)
L'histoire n'est guère plus que le registredes crimes, des folies et des malheurs de l'humanité. (translated:history is a mere list of crimes,insanity and doom of humanity)
le suicide n'est pas une action, c'est une émotion (suicide is not an action,it is an emotion.)
All the animals come out at night - whores, skunk pussies, buggers, queens, fairies, dopers, junkies, sick, venal. Someday a real rain will come and wash all this scum off the streets. (Travis Bickle of the film Taxi Driver)
There cannot live a more happy creature than an ill-natured old man who is neither capable of receiving pleasures, nor sensible of doing them to others (Sir William Temple)
I thought I was the mistake... Maybe the mistake was talking and trusting in you.
Blues like this lives out of sight of the world, I think. It seems more a solid oranic mass than a mood that can blow away or be lifted. It lies there and says, Go ahead, try to budge me. ... Blues like this doesn’t have ears. It can’t be disturbed. It has nothing to do with sadness or even grief—which at least are imaginable emotions. (Michael Greenberg, Hurry Down Sunshine)
If I was with people, I felt as if I were surrounded by strangers on a bus. The world seemed to be telescoping away; I saw everything through the wrong end of a pair of binoculars, watching tiny, animated people at the other end engage in activities I could not fathom. (Tracy Thompson, The Beast: A Reckoning with Depression)
Well, if there's anybody out there that can look around this demented slaughterhouse of a world we live in and tell me that man is a noble creature, believe me: That man is full of bullshit! (Howard Beale of the film Network)
I-so-wanna-pick-up-French!!!
i wrote this with my blood at 10:32 PM
These few weeks,the ex-2R people have been asking me to meet up for the small reunion sessions,first being last week (i'm not sure when,oh well) meeting up to watch Twilight together and have dinner and yesterday having dinner and pool.These two reunions are held at Tampines,fyi.So i was like reminiscing the secondary school days,where we used to hang out after school at Tampines Mall to have lunch and all. :D And i heard we're gonna have another outing on Tuesday,this time to go to Sentosa and then overnight stay,according to Yichao.Hope there's no change of plans.Heh.
It's really happy to see the guys all over again,even though i wasn't super close to them in sec 2 and all,so i'm kinda gratified that they asked me to go as well. :) Ok,i don't get their little inside jokes every now and then,but still,it's fun.Thanks again people.
i wrote this with my blood at 12:08 PM
Thursday, January 1, 2009
1. To move on with life and forget my past,no matter how happy or sad with H.My heart still skips a few beats when i see her. :P
2. To continue going to church,but still keeping a safe distance as well. *gets onions and crosses*
3. To at least get some decent marks for my year end exams.If not, i will seriously consider transferring to take Media instead.
4. To get a job or something for some extra pocket money.
5. To learn an instrument,seriously.
6. To do what i mentioned to Marc,my loyal acquaintance who has never failed to enlighten with some of his intelligence me over and over again.Reminder:it will occur some time this year. ;)
7. To make sure that my "moderate depression" status does not reach the "severe" level.It will be seriously disastrous.Heh.
These are the seven new year resolutions i have currently.Will be back to update/add on every now and then.
i wrote this with my blood at 8:58 PM
THE MANIAC.
i am the man staring back at himself in the mirror,thinking of tomorrow.
